Shape Yourself

      I know I'm very fortunate that I have the thing I have and it could be worse but sometimes it is hard to see past your own life to really believe that. I am child of divorce, alcoholism, and abuse ( how many ways to break a home right?).  These are things in my life that shaped me and though they suck and no child should have one speck of that stress on them, the fact is most do.  I watch the News and I wonder about these children (most of the crime at least around here seem to be 19 and under) I think to myself  "What could have happend  to make this person the feel they have the right to do this?"  Again I know that some had it worse than me but I know people who came from chaos and became outstanding Human Beings! So what is it really?

     My Mom raised me to count on myself and no one else and though she was a typical single Mom trying to make it she made me safe to not be in a box to Shape Myself !
We can't be something we're not life is too stressful as is.  However  and this is a BIG HOWEVER there are always going to be rules that we have to follow to participate in society.
                                                           Don't Hurt Anyone
                                                                  Don't Steal
                                                                   Don't Lie
                                                                        and
                                                                   Don't Cheat

All pretty basic and yes there are times that the rules can be broken but we allknow the world is not black and white.  The Gray is confussing like if someone is going to kill you you kinda have the right to hurt them to prevent your death.  I realise that most of this should go without saying but I find it best to cover all bases!

     So here we have this teen his/her dad is abusive, Mom a drugy what can this teen do?  Well he brought up knowing said rules but seeing all rules broken (as much as we would like our kids to do as we say and not as we do unlikely to happen) it is always easier to go the path one knows so society rules are broken and that continues the cycle... OR said teen could learn and realise there is something better and it really isn't too hard to get to that better place, seems easy enough see it on TV a good bit right? This is where we fall we set ourselves up, do we do it on purpose? I am sure there is some psychological explanation but the fact is we do it and not once not twice lets just say often.  I know I do it... The thing is too many people give up when the going gets tough! That is when you buckle down and fight! Once you are really there times get hard still but breaking that cycle so that your children, your future is brighter will always be worth it!

     I was 4 when my mother and father divorced and I am a daddy's girl through and through, it left me confussed and angry but as I grew up and realised that it was for the best I started to make notes as much as I loved my Dad I did not want that for myself ( drinking, smoking, lying etc). I also learned that wanting and needing are two different things (money starts wars).  I tripped and fell and found chaos often but now I have found love and the meaning of my life and it is my chiuldren who make everyday Shine!  I plan to let my children find themselves but my goal is to let it be ing sun shine and rain (to top the cheese off) rainbows of course!

Ending Note

“Be the change you want to see in the world.” ~ Mahatma Gandhi